It’s time for things to change here and in my life.
As content as I am, writing away and wish that I could all day, every day, I’m ready for a new adventure. I need to go away and do new things, different things – to get those ideas, to do things differently, to have no regrets. I don’t want to look back and wonder what would have happened if I had done it after all. I don’t want to be here, still in the same place, in six months time, having got nowhere.
It feels like a good time to make a change. The novel I’ve been working on for over a year has gone out into the world, another one is being formed in my head, and I’ll have to wait and see what happens with it. I’m sure that there’s more work that I need to do on it. I know ultimately where I want to get to – it’s just all the stuff in between. I’ve come to the realisation that sometimes things don’t happen right away, or that they take time to happen. I know where I want to get to eventually, and sometimes things have to be different to how you might have imagined.
It’s funny too, how your life can change unexpectedly because of a chance encounter, conversation, that sticks in your mind. That becomes a burning flame, that you know you have to pursue. I’ve always known that I’m not someone who was going to follow the crowd. I knew that I wanted to write, but I didn’t know how to do that while doing something else. I didn’t know what that something else was. It’s a little bit of a leap into the dark, into something that I don’t know how it’s going to go. It’s going to be something completely different to anything else I’ve ever done. I love windsurfing and paddleboarding, being on the water, and being outside, and I also enjoy teaching people and working with kids, so I’m hoping that this combination will mean that this works out for me. And if it doesn’t? Well, I’d rather not wonder for the rest of my life what could have been. And I’ll get some good stories out of it at least…
I know that I don’t want to be stuck in an office or a city or doing the same old cafe work for years to come. I want to be outdoors, I want to be doing, so that in my offtime, in the evenings when I sit down to write I’m not weary from having sat at a computer all day. Or at least that’s my reasoning…. Hopefully this training will take me towards where eventually I want to be – down in Cornwall and the West Country and other goals I want to achieve, of helping kids and living an outdoors, active and fulfilling life. I can still write alongside it, and I hope that one day I’ll be able to strike the right balance. I think the two lifestyles do go well together.
And I’m excited about this – it’s going to be challenging and hard work, but I think it will be worth it. So, I’m heading to the Isle of Wight for a few months to do some watersports instructor training – if all goes well, I’ll come out the other end with plenty of experience and qualifications under my belt!
Hopefully, on this blog I’ll be able to chart these new adventures and keep you up to date with what I’m doing.